Monday, September 3, 2012
Today is my &#?/%*th birthday! My wish is to be able to say the number without cringing. I know I'm being silly and this is a phobia I've gotten in my head. It's just that, when I'm not thinking about my age and I hear some story about a &#?/%* something person, I automatically think of this person as being old.
When I think about this logically, I remind myself that I'm only one day older than yesterday and that I have the mental outlook of someone who is, at least, 20 years younger. And people tell me that I look 10 years younger than I am. I'm in very good health and have some pretty good old-age genes. My mother is 89 and my father is 94 and neither of them have any life threatening illnesses.
The irony is that I probably "inherited" this mindset from my father, who, in his younger days, complained about old people: they drive too slow, they're penny pinchers and complain all the time.
Not that my father needed to drive the point home, but, about 4 years ago, he and my mother moved into an assisted living home. After a month, my father told me, "This place isn't working out for me." I asked him why, and he said, "I don't like it; there are all old people here!"
As I think about my hang up with age, it's not the absence of youth that bothers me, it's that I'm afraid that people will think I'm old when I tell them my age. So, I guess I should just get over it and come clean.
So, ok...here goes: I'm 60 years old today! Yeah, that wasn't so bad! "60 is the new 40", right? Ha, I spit in your face Mr. 60! My age doesn't define me! I'm still cool.
Yes, I feel better now that I've unloaded my fears about getting old. In fact, it's liberating!
But, hey, if anybody asks, can you just tell them I'm in my fifties? Thanks.
Author's note: Marie Nicole doesn't know it, but she gave me my first birthday present yesterday in her post entitled: "Roller Derby: A 3-Word Story, her entry in Trifecta, where she said that you're "never too old" to learn new things.
I wrote this for the Trifecta Week 41 Writing Challenge, where we are to write a 33-333 word story using the word, "absence", in the context of something which is wanting or lacking.